their happy is too loud.

Its not easy when you’re feeling so down on yourself – seems like there’s nothing you can do to boost your spirits up.  So alone.  So sober.  Thats how I’ve been feeling for awhile now + I just can’t seem to shake it. This weekend was definitely the hardest + it feels like it’s just going […]

https://hopeandbalance.wordpress.com/2016/03/15/their-happy-is-too-loud/

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Day One – Recovering

When I was a kid, I thought everybody’s dad lived in a different house. I thought it was normal getting picked up every other weekend, staying up late watching the movies your mother didn’t allow you to watch, and then going back home in the morning. I didn’t think it was strange that my dad’s […]
https://immolating.wordpress.com/2016/03/17/day-one-recovering/

Chris, Reservation For One…

I can sense in myself that this is it; game over; I can’t explain why, but I finally feel finished this time, with “feel” being the keyword as well as the most frightening one in my vocabulary – but King Alcohol has beaten the living shit out of me, stolen everything, and left me overwhelmingly […]

http://fromashesiriserecovery.com/2016/03/07/chris-reservation-for-one/

It isn’t easy, but it is worth it.

My journey to sobriety. “My name is Brittney and I’m an alcoholic.” I stood and said that sentence for the first time almost two years ago. I definitely didn’t believe that at the time, but I said it anyway. I was about 2,000 miles away from home when I walked into my first AA meeting. […]

https://blackoutbrit.wordpress.com/2016/03/03/it-isnt-easy-but-it-is-worth-it/

A Drinking Dream…in Which I Didn’t Drink?

Indeedles, as my oldest son says. I’m used to drinking dreams by this point; they don’t even rattle me. I wake up, yawn and stretch, and think, Well, that was another drinking dream.  And then I get up and go about my day. Drinking dreams used to scare the bejebus out of me, and sometimes I […]

https://recovery102.wordpress.com/2016/02/04/a-drinking-dream-in-which-i-didnt-drink/

In the Name of Healing: Cheesburgers

When it first got sober I was told, by the staff facilitating my recovery program, that I would quickly replace the activity of and the pleasure I received from drinking and drugging with something else. They went on to say that sometimes people replace one addiction with another. Sometimes people replace one unhealthy activity with […]

https://acatharticrelease.wordpress.com/2016/02/05/in-the-name-of-healing-cheesburgers/