At the very end of every OD everything stops. All the thoughts buzzing through your head are suddenly quite. All of your self abuse dissipates. No person or drug has control over your life any more. Everything stops. Your heart no longer beats. Your lungs no longer oxygenate your blood. The brain starves, and then […]
I can sense in myself that this is it; game over; I can’t explain why, but I finally feel finished this time, with “feel” being the keyword as well as the most frightening one in my vocabulary – but King Alcohol has beaten the living shit out of me, stolen everything, and left me overwhelmingly […]
The beginning of a long awaited journey.
This post may or may not make any sense, There’s been a lot of things on my mind lately, and I just wanted to let it all out. For the past few weeks, I’ve been crying a lot. Crying a lot meaning at least breaking down 3 times a day for the past month. I’ve […]
Today I thought I would do a post on Social Anxiety. I’ve never spoken about it before so I thought I would tell you what Social Anxiety is like for me, and things I found can help with social anxiety. What is it? It kind of says it in the name really! How I would […]
Emotional Numbing I was talking with my therapist today about being numb. Seems that since I went up on my mood stabilizer, my writing has been affected, and not in a good way. I feel numb and its hindering my writing abilities. I only write “good” writing when I feel strong emotion. I know it’s […]
There are many things than can take place within that one small second.In one second 3 barbie dolls are sold, 60 lipsticks are made, 6 babies are born and in one second somebody, anybody could take their life. I think as humans when we are told something, we don’t truly believe it until we see […]