Week 0 Day 4

At the very end of every OD everything stops. All the thoughts buzzing through your head are suddenly quite. All of your self abuse dissipates. No person or drug has control over your life any more. Everything stops. Your heart no longer beats. Your lungs no longer oxygenate your blood. The brain starves, and then […]



This whole “life” thing would’ve been a lot easier, for me and everyone else, if only my parents had kept paint-stripper under the kitchen sink instead of premium Polish vodka. At least that’s what I tell myself I was looking for all those years ago. I love the smell of paint-stripper. Vodka is a stripper in it’s own right. Here […]


A Drinking Dream…in Which I Didn’t Drink?

Indeedles, as my oldest son says. I’m used to drinking dreams by this point; they don’t even rattle me. I wake up, yawn and stretch, and think, Well, that was another drinking dream.  And then I get up and go about my day. Drinking dreams used to scare the bejebus out of me, and sometimes I […]


The Lost Weekend

Released:  1945 Cast:  Ray Milland, Jane Wyman, Phillip Terry, Howard Da Silva, Doris Dowling Oscar Wins:  Best Picture, Best Director (Billy Wilder), Best Actor (Ray Milland), Best Screenplay (Billy Wilder, Charles Brackett) Oscar Nominations:  Best Cinematography-Black and White (John F. Seitz), Best Music, Scoring of a Dramatic or Comedy Picture (Miklos Rozsa), Best Film Editing […]


The Precipice

‘It’s like a waterfall,’ she thought, ‘there’s something in that. The innocuous shallow running water at the top, round a bend, just far enough away that you can’t see the drop, can’t hear the crashing water. Shallow enough that you might step in. Might enjoy yourself. Might enjoy yourself. Then what? Maybe you get out, put […]


Where’s the drugs when you need ’em?

I had that job interview this morning…. It actually went pretty well. Ahead of time, the manager, we’ll call him Bob… informed me that the interview would take about 30 to 45 min. We talked for almost two hours. He did say he goes off on tangents, but I still take it as a good […]