Arrrrrghhh it’s 3 a.m. And head is still racing with thoughts. ive just made a brew, coffee as it happens. now I know before you start you will all be thinking well that’s the worse thing that you can do. You see that’s what I do I’ve already analysed and projected an outcome. Before anybody else has even read this. Coffee 2 spoonfuls mind and 4 sugars with milk. Just how I like it. It’s my substitute for the poison. My new chosen drug if you like. I open the cupboard and reach for a chocolate bar and i move two wrappers from the kitchen side that I’d eaten earlier when I couldn’t face putting them in the bin. At least if they are on the side I can see them and know that I haven’t swallowed them or breathed them In. Yeah you heard me right it’s true. You see I do try to open them so that all the paper stays intact so that there is only one piece of rubbish I have to make sure it is in the bin so I don’t think I’ve swallowed it or breathed it in. But no not this time both corners ripped off the wrappers which adds fuel to the fire. As I put them in the bin I got my new unopened chocolate off the side and then I have to reach back in to the bin looking for the wrappers to make sure that they where still there. As my throat tightens and breathing starts to go funny because I’m thinking that there might be a chance that I have swallowed or breathed in the corners of the wrappers. I pull the big pieces of wrapper out and the little corner pieces are no where to be seen. I’m routing frantically in the bin as my throat feels more and more like the wrapper is stuck in it. How can they be I question it don’t be stupid you’ve just put them in the bin. But have I. Did they really go in the bin. Are you sure. As I continue to question myself and argue with my own mind. But they are not here so I must have swallowed or breathed them in as I carry on rummaging through the bin, now pulling things out covered in lamb mint gravy and left over vegetables from my tea the night before. Where are they as my hands by this time are full off slimed horrible left over residues from the bin. It’s always the same aswell isn’t it. You can never find them and they always turn up in the place you least expect. As I’m nearly at the end of emptying the bin. One was there sitting in a box from some chicken kievs I had and another one right at the bottom of the bin as it must have fallen to the bottom as I was scouring through the rubbish. I let out A big sigh of relief as my throat starts to ease and my breathing starts to slow. I start to place the rubbish from the side back in the bin. I start to question myself again are they the ones that came of that wrapper. What if they where off another wrapper and the one I’ve put in the bin I’ve swallowed or breathed in. Aaarrrrrghhh as I start to get agitated I place the wrappers back on the side pairing them up with the relevant corner pieces like a jigsaw. To prove to myself that they fit exactly how they have torn to be certain that they are the corners for them wrappers and I haven’t swallowed them at all. I put the wrappers back in the bin right on top with the corners so that I could find them and see them if I needed to at any time. I picked my brew up and walked in to the lounge and sat down and had a sip of my brew. Stone cold. Brilliant I thought. So I get back up go in to the kitchen put it in the microwave for thirty seconds and finally I can sit down and have my brew. It’s tiring at times and draining. The simpler things are the easier it becomes. That’s how I have to keep it, in all I do. Because you see if I don’t hold it together I’m in trouble. All for a raspberry ruffle chocolate bar.
Who’d of thought it.


It’s not a joke the truth is out.. MENTAL HEALTH can bring you to your knees and it’s happening all around us. Why don’t they just get help you ask or why not take some medication for it to all go away and get on with your life. Well if only it was that simple, you see the truth of the matter is mental health illnesses come in many different life shattering forms that even prevent them from reaching out for help or advice. Many people suffer in silence for years and continue to pursue their life running on just pride and self-will alone, until Eventually they come grinding to an immediate halt of surrender, because they just can’t fight it any longer. Usually at this point individuals are at breaking point in one form or another and their family, friends and career are at jeopardy and rapidly crumble in front of their very own eyes. As they are no longer able to cope with everyday tasks and activities that one would take for granted, they are unable to function in society at large. Mental health has been frowned upon for years by many and people with a mental illness have been typically stereotyped as all sorts of random discriminating titles. If people just took the time to even try to understand that someone is struggling and help to guide them in the right direction to the relevant help and advice, rather than speculate and discriminate.  We could start to prevent the unfortunate circumstances surrounding mental health illnesses and help people to regather themselves and free themselves from their fears.  Just a bit of empathy and compassion sometimes is all that’s needed, it could just save someone’s life.  Yes that’s right someone’s life, the truth of the matter is far to many people are alone and ignored for far to long that it unfortunately leads to suicide.  This can be prevented with the right intervention and that struggling individual might save their career or marriage or even their life. And let’s not forget that just one day you or one of your loved ones might just need That help for what ever health issue that may be. And maybe, just maybe it might happen to be that person you helped out in their hour of need. Well they do say stranger things have happened at sea..

By Brett Pomfrey

Depression, anxiety, obsession and mental health HELPLINES

Rethink Mental Illness

Support and advice for people living with mental illness.

Phone: 0300 5000 927 (Mon-Fri, 10am-2pm)



Promotes the views and needs of people with mental health problems.

Phone: 0300 123 3393 (Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm)


Panic and anxiety

No Panic

Voluntary charity offering support for sufferers of panic attacks and OCD. Offers a course to help overcome your phobia/OCD. Includes a helpline.

Phone: 0844 967 4848 (daily, 10am-10pm)



Anxiety UK

Charity providing support if you’ve been diagnosed with an anxiety condition.

Phone: 08444 775 774 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-5.30pm)



Young suicide prevention society.

Phone: HOPElineUK 0800 068 4141 (Mon-Fri,10am-5pm & 7pm-10pm. Weekends 2pm-5pm)



Information on child and adolescent mental health. Services for parents and professionals.

Phone: Parents’ helpline 0808 802 5544 (Mon-Fri, 9.30am-4pm)


The Mental Health Foundation

Provides information and support for anyone with mental health problems or learning disabilities.



Confidential support for people experiencing feelings of distress or despair.

Phone: 08457 90 90 90 (24-hour helpline)



Charity offering support and carrying out research into mental illness. 

Phone: 0845 767 8000 (daily, 6pm-11pm)

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Alcohol support services

If you are concerned that you or someone you care about has a problem with alcohol there is lots of help available. Useful links are listed here.

A good place to start is talking to your GP who can refer you to local alcohol services. Alternatively you can contact one of the following organisations:


Drinkline runs a free, confidential helpline for people who are concerned about their drinking, or someone else’s.

Helpline: 0800 917 8282


A UK wide treatment agency, helping individuals, families and communities to manage the effects of drug and alcohol misuse. 

Alcoholics Anonymous Great Britain

The British branch of this worldwide network, AA is an organisation of men and women who share their experience with each other hoping to solve their problems and help others to recover from alcoholism.


Al-Anon is worldwide and offers support and understanding to the families and friends of problem drinkers.

Confidential Helpline 0207 40 30 888 open 10 am – 10pm or visit

Alcohol Concern

The national agency on alcohol misuse for England and Wales.

Provides general information about alcohol, and can help put you in touch with your nearest alcohol advice centre.

Call 020 7928 7377 or visit

NHS Choices

This site provides advice and information on alcohol and offers a database of support and treatment services 

Alcohol support services page


Information and advice for families of alcohol and drug users. The website has a list of local family support services.

Call 020 7553 7640 or visit 

National Association for Children of Alcoholics (NACOA)

Information, advice and support to children of alcohol-dependent parents and people concerned with their welfare through a free and confidential telephone and email helpline. 

Helpline: 0800 358 3456

Alcohol Focus Scotland

Scotland’s national voluntary organisation. Provides information and advice on responsible drinking.

Call 0141 572 6700 or visit

Talk to Frank

National drugs awareness site for young people and parents/carers.  


Provides confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day for people who are experiencing feelings of distress, despair or suicide.  

You can ring the phone line on 08457 90 90 90

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