The self medicating all started for me when i would work 6 to 7 days a week and as soon as i returned home from work i would take a drink to deal with the stress and anxiety of the day, only it was never one drink it was always a bottle, which soon became two then three and four and before i knew it i was deep in the grip of addiction, but because i was still getting up and going to work every day i refused to admit i had a problem until it hit me full on and i lost everything. The truth of the matter is the alcohol actually was never the problem, it was the solution, and it worked and worked very well until it stopped working. In actual fact the main underlying problem had never been addressed correctly as i had suffered with severe anxiety and panic disorder aswell as ocd for years and rather than seek the right medical advice and medication and therapy, i self medicated myself with the now know poison that is red wine. Very bad move on my part. Although i was too proud and embarrassed at the same time to admit the state of my mental health problems i was really suffering inside my mind. I just couldn’t cope. The daily battle was a painful torturous one that eventually came right back round and struck me down like lightning. Not only was i now a fully blown addict who was alcohol dependant i now had massive anxiety and panic attacks on a daily basis often like never before which then grew in to agoraphobia. Not only now was i imprisoned in my mind but now in body aswell, as i was unable to leave the house without debilitating fear and panic. So i would drink more in order to counteract the pain of fear, which just wouldn’t work any longer so i would drink some more until my body was just screaming out at me with mercy. It got to the point where i literally could not get drunk any longer and no sooner had i took the drink my body would reject it instantly with pleads of disapproval and pain. It was a horrendous time in my life and one which at times people questioned with worry that if i was going to die.
There is a strong link between alcohol and panic attacks. Those people who suffer from anxiety and such attacks are often tempted to turn to alcohol as a solution. This type of self medication is common. In the beginning drinking does appear to lessen anxiety, and the individual may also believe that it is preventing their panic attacks. Over time the dampening effect of alcohol begins to disappear. The individual discovers that alcohol is the worst possible solution to their attacks, but by then they may feel unable to stop drinking.
Those who abuse alcohol to manage their panic attacks become caught in a vicious cycle. Their drinking leads to increasing problems in their life, and this then becomes a source of more anxiety. The individual responds to this by drinking even more which leads to further problems. As the person becomes addicted they develop a tolerance to alcohol and then they have to drink more to get the same effect. The individual’s life becomes completely out of control. Not only do they have their panic attacks to deal with but also alcoholism.
It is also common for people to develop panic attacks for the first time as a result of alcohol abuse. Those who binge drink may find that they suffer attacks in the days after a big night out. Some people experience them as part of their hangover, and they can be intense because they are combined with all the other unpleasant symptoms that accompany the morning after. Some people who experience panic attacks the next day do so because they are in the early stages of withdrawal – these are individuals who have already become physically dependent on alcohol.
BE AWARE OF THE DANGERS THAT MAY LIE AHEAD IF YOU DONT SEEK THE RIGHT MEDICAL HELP FROM YOUR G.P AND THE MENTAL HEALTH TO ADDRESS THE PROBLEM. DONT DO WHAT I DID AND SELF MEDICATE WITH A SUBSTANCE OF YOUR CHOICE. IT ONLY GETS WORSE. BELIEVE ME IVE BEEN THERE MINE WAS ALCOHOL AND IT BROUGHT ME TO MY KNEES AND STRIPED ME OF EVERYTHING. ALL BECAUSE I NEVER ADDRESSED MY MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS, BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW. BECAUSE I WAS EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED. TAKE IT FROM ME ITS A MYTH AND PEOPLE DO CARE AND THE RIGHT HELP AND SUPPORT IS AVAILABLE.
An absolutely brilliant creative short film about sobriety and change. a truly fantastic artistic way of putting across the message. Published on 27 Oct 2014 I Am Root Co. and Dreamz Into Goals LLC. Presents: Menace to Sobriety, a short film by Dom S. Flagg….