Depressive Episodes Or Anger Anxiety – Which Is It?

My Journey To Freedom From Anxiety

feelings depression anxiety borderline personality disorder I’ve got so many FEELS.

I get these depressive episodes sometimes… like, I wouldn’t call them part of my depression. At least not entirely. They’re more like episodes where I want to fling the entire world into the depths of the universe like a javelin thrower knocking it out of the ballpark. Read entire post…

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to love

Salida Dreaming

to cut. to open up veins and let the reddened river rush, releasing me. to have the sobering throb of sliced skin dull the agonizing ache from within. it was my little secret. self-harming is a taboo subject. viewed as having no control over emotions or thoughts…well, i guess they weren’t wrong. in the Davis household, we do no have room for feelings. we were trained not to bring unpleasantries to the table because heaven forbid someone became uncomfortable. heaven forbid if someone caught a glimpse of the tiresome face behind the painted porcelain.
in middle school, the sickness started. the tumor grew inside my chest, making the task unbearably difficult to just simply live. impossible to drag myself out of bed because i couldn’t find one fucking reason to pick myself up and face the day. it metastasized to consume my body. everywhere the darkness touched. blinded my eyes…

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Addiction and Recovery: Some things I’ve Learned

Anything is Possible! mountain climbing. 709320In my thirty years as a substance abuse counselor, the most frustrating thing I’ve observed, over and over, is that people underestimate the power of the addiction monster and the work it takes to fight it.

With a few rare exceptions, most addicts and alcoholics have to work on recovery for the rest of their lives. If done well, the work gets easier over time, and  life can be good. Not always easy, but richer and deeper, with more options and more peace.

I know an alcoholic who’s been sober for well over a year and she still goes to AA every day. She’s learned the hard way, that’s what it takes for her. Every day, she calls her sponsor, prays and reads recovery literature or works the steps. She’s reasonably happy and able to share her experience, strength and hope with others. It may be possible to stay sober…

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